Original Song: “See Me (Such a Pretty Sick)”

The Female Yoda’s First Original Song!

“See Me (Such a Pretty Sick)”

Hi everyone! So, a couple weeks ago I guest-posted for the fabulous Fumbledore- also known as Leanne Sowul, curator of “Words from the Sowul” on the topic of beauty. My post was called “Such a Pretty Sick” and was about redefining beauty when you have an invisible illness like Lyme that leaves your looks but ravages your insides. I was very proud of what I wrote, and I’ll attach the post again here, but even three weeks after writing it, I found it affected me more and more. I suppose I didn’t realize how intense of an issue this was for me until I was asked to write about it. And this reflection made me realize just how much I want to be seen– to be given the understanding and recognition others get who have a less controversial diagnosis.

Right now, people with chronic Lyme are fighting to be seen. There’s a bill going before the Senate in the coming weeks to plead for better protection and aid for Lyme patients and doctors who want to treat them. I sent letters and emails to the NYS representatives, but I didn’t feel like it was enough. So I wrote this original song, and I’d like to share it with you today. I feel like it is- in a way- my anthem right now. And I hope it speaks to you, too. I hope you enjoy.

Sincerely,

The Female Yoda

“See Me (Such a Pretty Sick)” 

Music and Lyrics by: Kaitlyn Guay, May 28, 2014

 Verse 1

You just believe truth before you that you can see

But you can’t see me

You look my way

I’m whole and unbloodied so you walk away

Just when I need you

 I’m in the fray

Fighting and flailing

With my fists so small

Trying to hit what you cannot see

 There is no ring, no crowd

And the bell rang long ago

But nothing can end this round

‘Cause the fight’s inside of me

 Chorus

See me, can you see me?

Treading choppy water while you’re watching from the grass

Can you feel me, heal me?

I am un-bloody under siege

 Verse 2

The longer it takes the more that I know just what’s at stake

And it scares me

The races I used to know had thirteen miles to go

Now I take ten steps, so, pardon me for my eulogy

 My body’s a place of war on a never-ending tour

With only one hope in store:

To get back where I was before

 To painting a world that’s rid of Lyme

‘Cause I’m only twenty-nine

And I have spent too much time

Trapped unseen in a crude machine

 Chorus

See me, can you see me?

Treading choppy water while you’re watching from the grass

Can you feel me, heal me?

I am un-bloody under siege

Bridge

Color my invisibility

Paint it brightly for the world to see

Such a pretty sick I have but looks are misleading

See the warrior behind the smile

Take a walk in my shoes for a while

Look beyond the pretty lie and see me

 Chorus 

See me, can you see me?

Treading choppy water while you’re watching from the grass

Can you feel me, heal me?

I am un-bloody under siege

Can you see me now?

Can you see me now?

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